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Ancient Confessions
04:44
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ANCIENT CONFESSIONS
1
The tears flow from his eyes like falling stars in blackest night
And the star that once warmed his smile now shreds his countenance like ice
Now waiting for the dooms-day he dared to create
He’s breaking sticks and stones in alleyways praying that it’s not too late
All my ancient twisted karma, from rotting greed hate and fear
I leave to fall behind me like some stupid trail of tears
I have mistaken since the dawn but I’ll not be daunted yet
For body speech and mind have far greater use than regret
Chorus
I will hold my head up high until the gallows snaps my neck
And every morning until (then) I’ll do my best to see red,
Burn for beauty and for mystery, uniting bags of blood and flesh
Help clean all wounds from this storm of bricks, find new pathways to justice
2
Lurking in some blackened bar is a memory of a kiss
Or at least the one he meant to deliver but he missed
Her cheeks like magnets pulled him in, her breath so sweetly stank
Indeed the stoutness of her smile belied the twinkling in her shanks
I will pick up, I will move on, I will reinstate my vow
I will not guillotine my lust for life before some sacred cow
re-affirm, re-create, re-learn, re-boot, religiously
Slice the black roses off their stems so I can breathe without impede
Chorus
3
He sacrificed the body of the whore to the soul of the machine
Stockpiling items one and two, ad infinitum more to gleam
Terrorizing others, chasing the fear of his own breath
Creating nothing out of emptiness, preferring obeisance to death
Are you most afraid to see yourself or that others will see you free
Does the hunt for new experience obscure your ability to just be?
Why do we blame ourselves for suffering creating unnecessary shame
Dig deep beyond the mystery gate to find the root of your own game
Chorus
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Common Sense
05:06
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COMMON SENSE
1
Edicts of blood rain from the sky
“Make war not love, ask not why
Uphold the tradition, vindicate the lie”
But this is your earth too man, you decide
Your time
Chorus:
Common sense is so cold and dense
I try to break through but I can’t make a dent
Washed up on the edge of a cold lament
Gimme three steps to the edge of death
2
We threw our ashes in the waves
And told tales about our yesterdays
Bury awareness under heaps of blame
Broken shells of memory fade into haze
And that’s all you gave
Chorus
3
Hang it all upside down
Let what you’re holding come crashing down
Fear to proceed silenced by the sound
Let ancient delusion dissolve in the ground
And truth be found
Chorus
4
I cried one last tear from a blistered eye
Ran another damn mile to drop my fear a cold dime
Poured out my heart like a barrel o’ wine
I did way too much but I made it all mine
And I died
Chorus
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Not Dead Yet
05:49
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NOT DEAD YET
1
What do you say to yourself in the morning?
What story becomes you when you wake
How do you wander through a garden of nightmares,
Giving more than you could possibly take?
I have silenced my dreams by screaming louder than the wind
that brings them to me in the dark.
I've dimmed all the lights on the ship floating in the harbor,
The captain too drunk to embark.
Chorus:
You’re not dead yet—open your eyes
Breath by breath Time to arise
Forgive the past and let desire crystalize
make room for the mystery to be your guide
2
Now Soft music billows from light in the night skies
standing on the edge of the sheer cliff side
Open arms wide to feel the moon rise
Winnowing the crystal from the fluorescently disguised
magic is breath, the mundane is not deprived
The rose that was stolen Left a thorn in your side
you couldn’t see its beauty through your covetous eyes
Now Touch and smell its center become the truth waiting inside
Chorus
3
Heal all wounds with a drop of this delight
So sweet it’s lusted after by swarms of buzzing flies
wipe that sweat as Chin touches sky
Returning to daylight, forgiveness realized
The life of our dreams is not out of reach
Dreams are crashing on the sand beneath your feet
Take off your shoes, let your body lie
And become engulfed in blissful tryst at the next high tide
Chorus
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The Dove
05:47
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THE DOVE
1
The sky said to the dove:
“I give you 66 years to learn how to love
The dove said to the sky:
“I will break my back and tear out my eyes
But still prove I am love through majestic flight
And a gentle coo in the morning light“
Chorus:
Today is the first day of the rest of your life
Take up your courage, take up your broken spear
And learn to love the fight!
2
The earth said to the rose:
“I give you 66 years to learn how to grow “
The rose said to the earth:
Though my thorns be mangled, petals droop like heavy sighs
It is my quiet strength that abides and inspires life”
Chorus
3
God said to man:
“I give you 66 years to do what you can
Be something great, I’d like to see you try
I’ll take away your freedom, your independence, your will to thrive”
Man said to God:
“Through the broken body you gave me I have learned
I am love not form, boundless beyond time
I am ageless, I am wisdom, I am a vehicle for light!
I don’t need 66 years, I am eternal life
Chorus
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Set Myself on Fire
04:53
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SET MYSELF ON FIRE
1
whenever silence hits
I just can’t seem to stop thinking
I guess its’ true what they say
I’m just the millionth star-light blinking
But if the comets find their way
And the frozen streets in hell stop stinking
It’s then I’ll close my eyes
And let illumined mind start sinking
Chorus:
I’m gonna set myself on fire
Burn, burn like the sun in desire
stand tall through the muck and the mire
until I’m done
2
It’s a promise and a boast,
A reminder and an oath
To keep the lamps trimmed and burning,
Keep the hope
It’s a letter to a friend
An epithet to the end
In defiance of nothing
But to bend
Chorus
3
Discipline is only valuable if you can break it
Spontaneity is only riotous when you tame it
It’s the Birth of the fool
The Evaporation of the cool
The one who reclines in peace
behind all your pleadings
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Failed to Lotus
05:07
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FAILED TO LOTUS
1
I was kickin rocks down the street
And I was making love to my defeat
When someone tells you to be at peace,
Don’t it make you kinda want to scream?
Cause you can’t carry the dead in the branches of your tree
Chorus:
Failed to lotus but I’m back on my knees
Watching the clouds passing by—the immovable beast
2
So I buried them neath the clay
And said a prayer for their release
So light upon my feet
As the heaven’s shook the mountains and the mountains shook the seas
And my heart strings danced me like a marionette and my dreams woke free from sleep
Chorus
3
There’s honey in the trees
and it’s dripping down on me
There’s light upon the breeze
and it’s teaching me how to sing
In a voice so shrill like a crow with no beak
Chorus
4
The Towhees chirp so sweet
As their wings grace the leaves
Their song fills the air
And every note kisses me
Allowing the birth of the fool,
Erupting in wisdom that cannot speak
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Roll Out the Days
04:01
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ROLL OUT THE DAYS
1
Roll out the days
Smash up the nights
We never know why
We play or fight
Ceaseless meanderings
And troubled sight
Can’t put an end to
This brave delight
Chorus:
I made these chains
Of purest light
I harvest fear
In the glow of night
None can break
this rusted lock
This weight is mine
When judgment knocks
2
You know we’ve done this
Too many times
We’ll reconnect when
Our mistakes rhyme
I’m off again
To find my way
And the part of love
That dies in play
Chorus
3
You woke me up again
Out of the haze
Carrying my drum
You softly play
I follow your smile
Along the quay
But it’s hard to sleep
Without any dreams
Chorus
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You Are the Warden
04:24
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YOU ARE THE WARDEN
1
I wrapped my palm around the bottom of my thirst
And I answered your prayer as if it were a curse
There’s a sadness lurking deep below the fountain of my guilt
And a mushroom cloud of panic that stops me at the hilt
Chorus:
You are the warden, you hold the key
There is a spark behind your glassy eye that wants to set me free
I am not uninspired, tired, weak or lame
And I will not hold my head under a wall of unearned shame
2
Leaving once again Someplace I mistook for a friend
Shouting at the stars to keep my mistake paused
tearing out my eyes to see my sole delinquency
until command returns again, so senselessly bereaved
Chorus
3
My triumph was an acorn you crushed beneath your feet
But the seed has sprouted in the dirt and its roots are full of dreams
I can’t wait for you any longer to breathe each breath I need
So if you’re looking for what’s left of me turn your eyes up to the leaves
Chorus
I am the warden, I hold the key
There is a fire burning in my eyes that’s going to set me free
I am not uninspired, tired, weak or lame
And I will not hold my head under a wall of unearned shame
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Stop Trying
03:20
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STOP TRYING
Chorus:
Stop trying so hard to let go
Your flower’s bloomin’ so high above the snow
Burn fearful notions
Drown in a sea of gratitude
1
Leave the money at home
let your opened palms dis-own
Inherit everything your shown
On this earth where you lay your bones
Let each grain of sand be your throne
Chorus
2
Feeling wicked weary and alone
Carrying water, carrying stone
Fingers chilled to the bone
By isolation’s cold
But you are welcome in this warm moon glow
Chorus
3
Empty your quiver, drop your bow
Feel the harkening of the crow
open your heart, forget your mind
don’t be afraid of the dark
or the love you may find
Chorus
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Beau James Wilding Carpinteria, California
Gritty and poetic folk-punk-blues-rock. Organic earnestness with a brazen rasp. “Brilliantly eccentric songcraft” –Aldora Britain Records
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